Sunday March 15th 2015. I am writing these words as I am on my way back to Montreal. My two amazing friends Pauline and Nola came to Manhattan on Friday for a girls’ weekend getaway and to be my ride back home. The SUV we are driving in is jam-packed with so many suitcases (Ok… mainly mine!), that we can’t even move in the car! It's ridiculously funny :) Knowing we already were very limited in the space we had, we still shopped yesterday and managed to squeeze everything in! I mean… Girls have to do what girls do best ;) Believe me, we became experts at packing luggage! After an awesome night out in town, 3 hours of sleep and a gallon of coffee, we have 6 hours of driving ahead of us and apparently a snowstorm awaiting in Montreal!
I am a roller coaster of emotions right now… My mind and my heart are in so many different places. Words cannot fully express how I feel. But writing allows me to understand myself. I am letting it all out on paper… My feelings, my thoughts, my everything… Please bear with me if it doesn’t always make sense.
A part of me is grateful for the incredible experience I just lived. Two months of discoveries! Discovering a city that I always loved and that instantly became my home. Discovering new friends, that share the same passions as me and that I will keep and cherish after this adventure. Discovering new inspiring people that made me believe in my dreams and have me aspire for more! And most importantly, I discovered myself… Tears are running down my cheeks… Tears of joy for the luck I have to live my heart’s biggest desires… Tears of sadness for leaving a city that became my muse… Tears of excitement for what is ahead… Because one thing is for sure, this is not the end! It is only the beginning of a new journey: The road to my aspirations! I dream BIG! And I am a believer that if you write down your goals and work hard towards reaching them, they manifest into reality! Even the craziest ones :) Here it goes: I thrive to be a successful entrepreneur and personality in the fashion industry!
I cannot go back to my life before NYC! I owe it to myself and to my happiness to become the woman I want to be! It may not be clear now how I will exactly do this, which steps I will take next, which country I will live in in the future and where I will end up… But I know that I will do whatever is necessary to make it happen! I am ALL in! We only live once, have to make every second count and listen to our heart!
I am blessed to be healthy, have the energy of a 5 years old kid, the mindset of a dreamer and to be surrounded by such a supportive family, group of friends and now followers! This support is beyond priceless and pushes me to continue in my moments of doubts. Doubts of starting a new career… Doubts of failing… The perfectionist in me telling me that I might not be enough… I am human. I am a woman, very sensitive and close to my emotions. And that is OK! It’s ok to have ups and downs. It’s ok to be vulnerable and understand that vulnerability. It only makes you stronger and appreciate life even more! I believe that if you keep a positive attitude and outlook towards life and your destiny, you can only find happiness!
This is not a goodbye letter to my life in New York City. It’s the start of a new one in Montreal! Who knows? I might be back in NYC soon or move to another fascinating one… I truly feel that I am a citizen of the world!
I will share with you the steps I am taking towards reaching my goals! I will take you with me everywhere I go and share my passion for all things fashion & styling as well as my lifestyle and discoveries. And, I want you to feel that you can reach out to me with comments, ideas, opinions or simply your thoughts! I love interacting with you through this media!
Thank you for reading me! Letting you into my thoughts and my heart is my way of leaving my message, my “griffe” in this crazy, wonderful world!
Here are my favourite images in New York City :)
Photos by Shoval Tshuva